shocking realization about life

so in the process of commenting on a good friend's blog, i found my blog that i had to create for a writing class. now that i have found this blog, and i have a ton of free time on my hands i'm going to start writing in it and see if i have anything to say that peaks anyone's interest..

while i am enjoying this summer as i have no responsibilities or commitments to adhere to, i am slowly going crazy as i am not used to this type of lifestyle. i feel like ever since i can remember i've had some deadline to meet or a job to attend. as it was enjoyable for the first month or so, now as i'm approaching the end of the third month (and the bottom of my bank account due to lack of income), i feel so useless in life. i had actively interviewing for a post-grad full time job, but with the economy the way it is, it has been quite frustrating. i most recently interviewed at two companies who persued me through job boards i posted to. both sets of interviews, i felt, went rather well and i'm expected to hear from both companies in the near future (hopefully this week). these companies couldn't be more different but both jobs sound very rewarding and challenging so i would be more than happy with an offer from either (but i do prefer one to the other).

in my days of waiting for this life changing phone call, i have been trying to find projects around the house to keep myself busy (that require little driving since gas is high and i am broke!). so recently i've decided to give my room a mini makeover since i haven't really done much to it since i moved away to school. so in my shopping adventures i have watched the stores get ready for the back to school season. seeing all the notebooks, backpacks, and college dorm supplies displayed proudly on store shelves, i am slowly coming to the realization that this is not just a summer break and that i am not returning to school in the fall. i am an "adult" now and have to start real life soon. although it depresses me slightly to think about this, i must say i am more excited than anything. after learning about the two jobs i have been interviewing for, i realize how happy it makes me to see that these jobs are something i could be happy doing and that the "real world" may not be so bad after all. so fingers crossed everyone!